Yellow Moon

I need a new scanner. This scanning process is ruining my original work.

Blue Ocean

You know sometimes you just want to throw things away but end up regretting and not do it? I was just about to do that but then something stopped me and I found myself uploading this work without knowing why.

It looks better in real life, I think. I'm out of creativity at the moment, so I just name it after the first term that comes into my mind. Like always, after drawing something, part of my soul is given out, so I feel like I'm out of energy, even though I have not actually done anything. 

Rants

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Too mad/angry/ irritated for proper words.

Brain's temporarily not working

Lost in my own tiredness. 

In other words, not wanting to think anything.

Let it all go.

Obviously I cannot, so here I am writing something useless and senseless again. Perhaps I only write something when I face my depressing period. This should somehow change eventually. Over the last few days I am down with a brain-freezed disease, not wanting to move, not wanting to do anything, even though I should be working my head off. Hopefully I get over this soon, because I really have no need for this especially during this school year. 

How about this, I shall let it be and leave it for this week, after that, it will be the time to pull myself together.

Abnormal

After figuring out that I usually write better when I am depressed, I realized that I am constantly in that state. Then again, since it is part of my mind, I can never pretend it is not there. As a matter of fact, perhaps it is what's keeping me sane. 

I have not read a book in a month. For a person who usually spend an unnecessary great amount of money for books, who read books like there is absolutely no end, this an incredible worrisome phenomenon. To be exact, I have not read any book that is not related to school or part-time work in any way, since if you counts that, the number would be at least 7. 

Perhaps that explains this empty feeling which prevent me from feeling anything lately. After the last exam is over, I will definitely finish the stack of books that I have already stocked in the to-read list. 

2 days of doing nothing

As the title suggested, I stayed at home the entire weekend doing nothing, and this is the result of "nothingness".
Originally it was drawn on A3 paper, so the quality is even worse after the two pieces being scanned and patched together. I just leave it like that without editing anything, since I think it's not too bad. The actual painting is way better though. (I believe I say that every time, not that I'm praising myself, but the truth is the truth.)

This is definitely my favourite one for now.

This the the eight devils, each rules over one specific hell realm. Call them reaper or soul holders or contract makers, it's all the same. Seriously, I really want to improve my drawing, since I desperately want the story to be properly present one day. Even I have to say my story plot is cool, and I am rather critical, especially when it comes to things like this.

Trying to do better

Lately I have been interested in models. Well, not actually lately, since the story of Kiyoshi has been on my mind for exactly 4 months about now. Normally she has short/ middle hair, but I suddenly want to draw her with long hair. When you are a model, you have to change your hairstyle constantly anyway.
The first one is just plain drawing, second is with pencil and third with graphic pen. Though I like the third one the most, I still have to admit that the second one somehow looks better.
I want to change my style a bit. More realistic, more details, more beautiful, more refine. I think almost everyone is aiming for that, not only me saying this out loud.