Judge and misjudge

from Dark134

I am the kind of person who only think of today and never of tomorrow . How shallow . But I do logginf for adventures and excitements . That was what I read in facebook.
Part of it seems right . Well , since now that I look it over , I do need to seek the future a bit more . What the hell is wrong with me and my dream ? So , listen now the me of the present . I want to finish my education , go to England and finish university . Not quite sure what will I study . But I am dying to become an artist , eventhough I am the worse of them all , and my paintings are junk people would threw immidiately away . I want to paint , to draw , to be heard of , to be accepted . I want to love , to be love , and to sacrisfice all for it if the time comes . I want to fine a life , at least out of my hopeless one currently .
Are you listening ?

Autumn 16 years old

A, now I am offically 16 years old . Damn it . How I hate getting older , it makes life less fun . The blue blue sky is already less brighten as it was .
Nothing much to talk about celebrating , since I don't want it . Although  I did have to suffer 3 birthday songs , a lot of hugging and congratulating . Lucky enough , exactly on my birthday , the weather has got colder and rainy . I love the rain .
What did I do ? Nothing as a Sweet 16 like everybody else . I know , I'm weird . While the other is dying to be at this age , I detest this stupid so-called human nature of growing older . That doesn't mean I didn't do anything though . Opened 3 bottles of wine and try each of them . Boah , can't get the taste out of my mouth even now . Sigh , I'm just not used to those stuff . But have to get use to them sooner or later .
I was not happy at all as my grandparents and great grandma  came to give me presents . I'm not a family child . I hate this so-people-say home the first day I was born . Can't wait to get out of it and live on my own .
Anyhow , glad that some old friends still remember it . Accept those two horrible best friends of mine , spare me guys . I was enough of a nightmare without you sending all those cards and gifts . Thank you . Thank you my friends and exspecially these two nuts for still being there for me .